No Reason

Drowning deep in my pain.
Losing my mind. Think I’m going insane.
Stomped over her heart. Pushed her out the door.
I can search forever…will never find her no more.
Only have to look in the mirror for the blame.
Shouldn’t have reacted by calling her that name.
To her feelings, I send my condolences.
Have to man-up and face the consequences.
Tried to control everything, making no concessions.
I was wrong…but it’s too late for that confession.
Reality was realized with the slamming of the door.
She drove off when I reached for the car door.
Wanted to simply apologize.
Told her I would fulfill all her dreams and I lied.
Did nothing to achieve that feat.

When she opened her heart, I thought it was some bull.
I’ve lost my treasure. Now I look like the fool.
Told me I was becoming diluted.
I never listened, only disputed.
Now, I see that she’s right.
Only when it’s over do I have sense enough to fight.
She begged me to fight time and time again.
Knew I was losing her. Was only concerned with my own anguish.
She was bruised and battered. Her spirit was defeated.
Said my love was unconditional, but it was limited.
She pulled away…becoming shy and timid.
Why did I get the disease called complacency?
Why did I stop treating her like a delicacy?
Stopped doing right, being careful.
Became nothing but her emotional abuser.
Forgot the reason we came here for.
Gave what I thought was all I could give
But she wanted, needed more.
Her smile was nothing but a façade,
Covering how she was dying inside.
Never stopped her weeping.
Even when she knew there was no hope, she kept believing.
Caused her feelings to go into recession.
I refused to not be blind and made no intercession,
Further pushing her away.
Gave her no reason to work things out, to stay.