Unchained Lyrics

The smell of your perfume
Reminds me of that past tune,
‘Is it the way?’
Watching your hips sway
Gazing into your eyes
Captured by the truth that lies
In your style, your grace
That takes me higher.
The soft touch of your lips
Reminds me there’s none better than this.
You have this man….hypnotized.
My friends say paralyzed.
Sprung?
Whipped?
Whatever it is, I don’t care.

Let me run my fingers through your hair
Whisper how much I care
How I’ll never leave
The air my lungs breathe
Selfish…
When it comes to your time
You’re mine, only mine
Not for me to share
Without you, there’s despair

Beauty freezes when it sees you.
Sexy turns her face with just a glance of you
Only the sun rivals the radiance of your smile
Your glow is my north star
I’ll travel a million mile.
Take my hand
Let’s enter this land
Exclusively made for you and I
For the rest of our lives.
Souls unmasked.
Love made manifest.
Passion unbridled.
Ecstasy uncovered.
No outside interferences.
We’re the only factor.
With you, completeness covers this man.
You must understand
I need you like life support…
I need you until time ticks no more.

Refine Me

Just as gold is purified in a furnace,
I need you, my Maker…my Engineer, to refine me.

Make me whole.
Repair the damage I’ve done.
Take this man of imperfection,
Touch me with your hands of perfection.
With Your grace and mercy,
Shower me.
Give me a new walk.
Give me a new talk.
Put the mud over my eyes.
Continue to un-blind me.
My spirit within…continue to make it anew.
Let my reflection be of you.
Let your Word be made manifest within me.
Wisdom and discernment: instill it in me.

Keep refining. Don’t want to be a finished product.
If finished, I can no longer be perfected.
Keep molding me.
Don’t remove me from the fire.
Keep me in your refinery
Ridding me of my impurities,
Releasing the toxins out of my mind,
Cleansing the stains of my sin…
Becoming more defined,
Enhancing my mind,
Growing to be more introspective,
Clearer and improved prospective.

Keep me near.
Away from You, I am nothing.
I’m like the deer,
Thirsty, panting for more of You.
I’m only a man.
You’re the reason why I am what I am.
Decrease me.
Increase you.
With Your blood, cover me.
Justify me.
Re-shape me.
Change me.
Refine me.

Nothing

All my life,
Living on death-row.
A criminal walking free.
Boxed in by society’s preconceived notions.
Trapped by prejudice.

Heart cold.
Mad at the world.
Never got a fair shake.
Any opportunity, I had to make.
But it was always taken.

Discouraged.
Each day I get closer to my execution date,
Playing the cards I’ve been dealt.
A losing hand is all I’ve ever seen.
Life’s never had significant meaning.

Soul in purgatory.
Dark days describe my story.
My purpose and I have no acquaintance.
My worth and I have never crossed paths.
Time is fading away.

Conditioned
Is my mind that I’m Nothing.
Just a number on a census report.
No one recognizes me.
The world has forgotten about me.

Sentenced
To death at birth.
My fate was sealed the day I entered Earth.
A product of my environment.
I’ve only become what was spoken on me…
Nothing.

If Only I Could

No longer want to be the ‘happy’ I dream to be.
Want to be the ‘happy’ I seem to never be.
If only I could open my eyes & see.
If only I could let go & release.

If only I could believe & achieve…
Achieve what’s due to me…
Break through that wall, achieve the feats.

If only I could reach the creations of my mind,
Step out on them and free my mind.
If only I could….

It’s been wanted ever since childhood.
The moment innocence was stolen.
World no longer golden.

Simply wanted the ‘happy’ I’ve always craved.
It’s just never been MY time.
So in this place I stand;
I no longer can.

If only I could…..

So I embrace sadness as my destiny.
Tonight, I bring its ending.
Life no longer worth living.
Breath…slowly leaving…..

Someday, Some Way

Someday, some way
They will see I’m not who I used to be,
That this thing is bigger than me.
I’ve found Him, and He’s revolutionized me.
My full potential, I now see.
I’ve seen my destiny.
Only goal is to reach His Eternity.

Someday, some way
They’ll understand I had to step out.
Had to take ownership of my life, leaving no doubts.
If I stay, I’m a favorite.
If I leave, I’m a villain.
Accepted when I’m losing.
Hated if I’m winning.
Have to do what’s best for me:
Run this race and achieve.

Someday, some way
They’ll let go of the hate
And see that it doesn’t tear me down…but motivates
Me to reach for places I’ve never been.
One day, maybe, we’ll mend.

Someday, some way
They’ll accept me for me
And comprehend that I decreased
Myself far too long for their increase.
They’ll see that while I pushed them to succeed
Their foot was always on my throat, keeping me from living.

Someday, some way
Somehow it will all be okay.
We can talk again, laugh again.
Maybe they’ll see what He’s done for me
And seek Him…find their own wings,
Take flight,
Find their own light,
And in Him…abide.

Someday, some way.

Frozen

Frozen in time
Viewing the damage left behind…
Left by love’s carnage.
Chaotically, violently
Kidnapping the man I used to be,
Making me oblivious to the dreams that used to be.

Frozen in this moment,
In denial of the torment.
House torn.
Energy almost gone.
Hard to gather the pieces.
Losing grips with my belief.

Frozen in this instance.
No foundation on which to stand.
Arguments but no solutions.
Questions but no answers.
Corruption has spread like cancer.
Confidence is scattered.

Frozen in this moment.
Frozen in this instance.
Frozen in this time.
So much damage left behind.
Never rushed. Tried to be patient.
Now covered with a feeling of anxiousness.
How to turn the tide?
Are we out of time?
Has it reached its ending?
Is there a new beginning?

Consequence

Past is prologue.
I knew of the precedence.
If you trace my heart’s remnants,
And follow the tracks of your lipsticks…
You won’t find coincidence.

Follow the trail of your scents.
The lies told…no conscience.
Indescribable…makes no sense.
Secrets you kept in hiding. My back…you kept stabbing.
Nothing but a repeat of your beginnings.

You only knew love by name
Because the more I looked into your eyes,
I could see that you didn’t recognize its face…
Blowing it back with your coldness.
Was appalled by the taste of your blindness

Told me your past was in the past
And that none of it remained.
Said you've changed.
I tried to look beyond the facts.
You remained the same.

Had fallen hard.
Allowed you to trespass on my heart.
The damage…irrevocable.
The hurt…incomprehensive.
Utterly disgusted. Don’t know if I can forgive.

Trusted you.
Let you in.
You broke me down.
I’m at the brink of my ending.
Inside, nothing is in existence.

Past is prologue.
Ignored the precedence.
Traced my heart’s remnants.
Followed the tracks of your lipsticks.
Followed the trail of your scents.
Now I’m entrenched
In the quicksand of Consequence.

Displaced

No longer believe in love at first sight
Because I’m blind to the sights.

Soul tattered,
Heart calloused
By the onslaught…the onslaught of hollow emotions.
I’m broken…broken by un-kept promises.
I’m torn…torn from never getting more.
So I mourn the loss of joy,
Mourn the death of happiness.
Love only exists in fantasy.

So I’m shutting the door to fantasy’s hallucinations.
No longer falling victim to its bait.
Will no longer be an addict of the unreal.
Hurt so much, I no longer feel.
Trapped in a darkened place.
A refugee of love’s horrific hurricane…
I’m displaced.
Let my soul rest and meditate.

Stopped thinking this love thing is real.
Can’t continue to carry its infection,
Making my heart cold.
I need the pill…give me the antidote
To soothe the pain.
The agony can’t continue to reign.
I’m weak, tired of waiting.
So I’ll rest, heal, and meditate.

The Door

Sweat falling.
Knuckles bloody.
Shoulders sore.
Breathing heavily.
Eyes reddening.
Voice hoarse.

Can’t open the Door.
Knocked endlessly
But no response.
Pushed mightily,
But it wouldn’t budge.
Rammed into the Door countless times,
Only leaving it dented.
Screamed to the top of my lungs,
Begging for someone to answer…
No one came.



Drop..drop
The tears hit the floor.
Missed her before she closed the Door.
Told her to leave.
But it was my breath leaving.
Was love ever in existence?
Were we just pretending?
Don’t know what to do.
Embedded in the residue.
Too scared to face the truth.
Dialed 911.
Put out an Amber Alert.
Love has been kidnapped.
Taken in night’s silence.

Set out to find her.
Wanted to find the truth,
The source of the matter.
Is it me or something else?
The former or the latter?
How can we bridge the gap?

Was told it was the latter.
So here I stand bruised and battered.
Tried to open the Door but never had the key.
Tried to breakthrough, but it was never about me.
Fought a battle I could never win.
The only victory is if she heals within.
What I thought I knew remains no more,
For it was abolished by the unopened Door.

Abstract Mask

Smile brightly,
Exuding confidence.
Never shaken.
Never rattled.
Fear’s never a factor.
For the man behind the abstract mask.

Stronger than the rest.
Nothing penetrates my fortress.
In storms, I’m the calm.
In confusion, I’m clarity.
For every problem, I have the solution.
That’s what I’ll have you to believe,
Because you only see my abstract mask.

Always there for others,
Lifting them up when they are down…
Being strong when they are weak.
Need no one there for me.
Can do it all by myself
As long as I’m behind my abstract mask.

Loss my dad at a young age.
Relationship with my mom severely damaged.
No one to talk to, to lean on.
No elders to call on.
Have sleepless nights from feeling alone.
Cry from the hurt of those close to me.
This you don’t see,
Because I hide behind my abstract mask.

Frightened by failure.
Wonder if I’ll fulfill my potential.
About my future…what’s my mortality?
Men close to me haven’t sniffed the age of 60!
Scared of what kind of husband I’ll be.
Fearful of what type of father I’ll be.
Maybe I’m scared to let others see my density?
Scared to be great and refine my ability?
These are the questions I ask
Behind my abstract mask.

So I’m chasing God to be the man He created me to be…
Gaining leadership to lead my family,
Gaining courage to overcome my fears,
Gaining strength to stop the tears.
I’m learning to live life with no worries,
Learning to spread my wings & soar through the skies,
Enjoying each present moment & releasing myself from the past.
I’m building a foundation that can last.
And as the sands pass through the hourglass,
I’m learning to let my guard down
And let you see the man behind the abstract mask.

Emotions Unheard Untold

In the mirror, a faded picture.
Unrecognizable reflection…
Pulled from a broken frame.
Heart torn.
Spirit worn.
Hurt…can no longer hide it.
Search for happiness…can’t seem to find it.
Truth is glaring.
Pain piercing
Through my heart, my soul
Unveiling emotions unheard untold.

Listened to her heart.
Heard the stories
Of its damage.
Told her I’ll hold her when she cries,
Be the tissue that wipes her eyes
And show her a new world.
One that she can be the center of,
Where we can thrive and learn
There are no parameters of what we can become.

She embraced the smile I put on her face,
The comfort that drove her fears away,
The support that got her through the rocky days.
Finally had everything she anticipated.
Never thought of reciprocating.
Wanted me to be Number 1…
Treated me as if I was the Last 1.
Her actions fell short and I don’t know the cause.
Now I’m filled with questions.
Was first impression all a façade?

Expressed my issues
Of her harping on historical figures,
Of how her actions didn’t speak the words she spoke,
Of how routine things were obsolete.
Was told it registered.
As soon as love returned,
It was nothing but a rerun,
That’s now developed into a cycle.
Now we’re both trapped.
Murky.
Dark.
Messy.
Chaotic.
Unstable.
Crumbling.
It’s a balancing act.
Maybe it’s all an act.

In the mirror, a faded picture.
Unrecognizable reflection…
Mangled from the broken frame.
Heart torn.
Spirit worn.
Losing the fight for love’s life.
Hurt and can no longer hide it.
Searching for happiness but can’t seem to find it.
Truth is glaring.
Pain piercing
Through my heart, through my soul
Unveiling emotions unheard untold.