If Only I Could

No longer want to be the ‘happy’ I dream to be.
Want to be the ‘happy’ I seem to never be.
If only I could open my eyes & see.
If only I could let go & release.

If only I could believe & achieve…
Achieve what’s due to me…
Break through that wall, achieve the feats.

If only I could reach the creations of my mind,
Step out on them and free my mind.
If only I could….

It’s been wanted ever since childhood.
The moment innocence was stolen.
World no longer golden.

Simply wanted the ‘happy’ I’ve always craved.
It’s just never been MY time.
So in this place I stand;
I no longer can.

If only I could…..

So I embrace sadness as my destiny.
Tonight, I bring its ending.
Life no longer worth living.
Breath…slowly leaving…..