My Renaissance

I can count the friends I’ve lost.
Endless nights I tossed.
I’ve been beaten down, suffered the consequence.
Now I’m changing…going through a Renaissance.
All those times I suffered pain and hurt,
You would have thought I was suffering from a curse.
I got blind and could not see.
No matter how bright, it was always dark.
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t generate that jumpstart.
I allowed myself to be used.
Even withstood much abuse.
Times I thought were good, they were nothing like that.
My own family even stabbed me in the back.
I wasn’t living no more.
I was hollow at my core.
Hatred started to seep in.
Thought I had fallen off the deep end.
In spring, my flowers never bloomed.
Over my life, a dark cloud constantly loomed.

‘What do I do?’ was my cry.
How to turn it around? I just turned it over to Christ.
By not initially turning it over to Him, I was wrong.
I didn’t realize that at my weakest, that’s when He’s strong.
He picked me up, turned me around, gave me the vision & strength to carry on.
All my wrongs, He made right.
All my battles, He put up the fight.
All I had to do was turn it over.
And at that moment, He had me covered.
Never quite been the same.
My sun now shines, no matter if it rains.
Satan, had to get far behind.
Though he tries to seek me, God won’t let him find.
I used to think that conquering life was about money and having a big name.
But, it’s in His book where I want my name.
Many friends I have lost.
Endless nights I tossed.
I’ve been at my lowest, suffered the consequence.
Now I’m changing, after taking hold of God, going through my Renaissance.