In The Gap

I’m stuck in the gap.
Stuck between failure and success
The gap between hate and love;
Hot and cold;
Happy and sad;
Confusion and clarity;
Up and down;
I’m stuck between sunshine and rain,
Second and minute,
Minute and hour,
Moving and being still,
Living and dying,
Depression and gregarious,
Dark and light,
Actually and might,
Stoic and crying.
I’m in that space we sometimes find ourselves in.
You can’t explain it, but you feel it deep within.
You don’t understand the complexity.
Trying hard not to let it overtake me.

I’ve lost my father.
Seems like I’m losing the other too.
At times I feel so lost…
Swear I don’t know what to do.
New status in this world has been attained.
I didn’t want it now. Cancer is the one to blame.
It took a big part of me.
Half-light, half-dark days are all I see.
Since that day, things will never be the same.
Win some, lose some.
And I’ve lost a big one.
Things shifted so dramatically.
Takes everything within me to not question.
It’s a major adjustment.
ONLY by God’s will is my testament.